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Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Older, crankier, needier.


I changed . This is ny new profile picture.
I 'm older.
And not prettier.
Cranky at the smallest thing.

I miss normal.

A little pain in the knee. Rest and heat. Can't stand too long; can't walk too long; can't ride or drive too long. Knees are On my mind, all the time. 
Age has krept  in my joints like sand , irritating a bit at the beginning, worse as time moves on.
This time last year, I was walking four miles a day and barking at slow movers.


Now, I pace myself through the day.
I nap.
I eat my favorite foods.
I watch comedy.

I still have my eyes and my fingers!

43 comments:

Donna said...

So funny, but true! The older I get the more I am thankful when things feel OK! As for the knees, have you thought about total knees? Helps so much and makes a world of difference!(we have the world's best surgeon here...)

The Girl from Cherry Blossom Street said...

Oh can you believe that is exactly what I feel!
Older. Crankier. Needier.
I also like to nap, eat and watch movies like The Godfather :-)

By the way, THIS IS NORMAL! :-)

Brian Miller said...

smiles. and one day i will be there as well...think my knees are trying to age me faster but that is due to an old injury...you still got lots...

Robyn said...

Your new profile picture is really beautiful. A great shot.

I'm sorry to read of your pain and I hope that it doesn't become permanent and never takes away your wonderful spirit.

Big love to you Rosaria x

KarenG said...

Oh dear, that much change in just a year? I'd be looking at knee surgery. If you were active before then you will probably be one of those who has great results.

yaya said...

I work with Donna (the first poster here) and yes, I think new knees are in order. Usually the patient knows when they've had enough and you sound like you're there. I like your pic! I do understand though, I look in the mirror and wonder who that old broad is looking back at me!

Butternut Squash said...

Hey pretty lady, naps and comedy sound good to me. Maybe you can add a little Tai Chi or Yoga into the daily routine to get those joints oiled up.

Lyn said...

Rosaria, I love the new profile pic. Your knees may be stiff and sore and you may not be able to stroll as far without pain, but your wisdom, words and shared experiences are filled with colour, energy and personality. You are a timeless writer!

Eva Gallant said...

I have a new profile picture on my blog, too. I hope you visit and see it. It's right on my banner. I too get crankier and achier as time goes by. And I have a son who is always on my case...You need to go out more, you need to walk more, etc. It's annoying!

Hilary said...

It's a lovely photo. I think cranky is an earned thing. ;)

Ann Best said...

Eyes and fingers. That's what we need! We all get older and not prettier and cranky. If we live long enough, this happens.

I LOVE your new picture; it says "I've lived." How else do we get gray hair and creaky knees? And you're a wonderful writer. Your spirit shines through your writings.

Keep pacing yourself. Keep napping. I'm all for naps!!

willow said...

Oh, I hear ya. But you don't look cranky! Wonderful pic!

Marion said...

Rosaria, you cracked me up. We all have good and bad days in the photo department, no? I FEEL your pain. Literally! I was only 48 when a doctor told me I needed a new right knee. I'm uh, quite a few years older and hobble around but can't stand the idea of another surgery. (I had a botched back surgery a couple of years ago which made me worse....yada, yada, yada). I don't trust the surgeons in this small town. Maybe when I'm over 60 I'll consider it.

(My mom is 82 and cussed her heart doctor out yesterday because he told her she was old. The women in my family do not use the "O" word. She even insisted that my 57 year old sister dye her hair when she tried to go gray because she said it made HER look old...Mama's hair is fire engine red and has been forever).

Oh, and you are beautiful. Blessings!

Linda Myers said...

For the last week, when I've waken in the morning, nothing hurts. What a treat!

Hope you'll get some relief from your knees.

Helen said...

I look at your photo and see nothing but loveliness ... knees be damned. Can't imagine a cranky or needy Rosaria!

Cloudia said...

I can relate. We are survivors and wise together, Sistah




Warm Aloha from Waikiki

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Dibakar Sarkar said...

You look very beautiful...

A Cuban In London said...

'I still have my eyes and my fingers!'

And your mind. Which is brilliant. Many thanks for such a heartfelt post. I wish I could reach sixty-five still blogging as you do.

Greetings from London.

Natalie said...

Old age is a b----. It would be very frustrating to be so active and then be incapacitated. :(

I too, think you look pretty.

Diana said...

I too like your photo and think you look lovely. A nap, hmmm, I think we all need them, just have quite earned them again yet. What I wouldn't give!

potsoc said...

I do nap some days and my knees are not what they used to be but hey we do have to keep on going.
Walk slower but walk as far otherwise you get rusty and it gets worse.
WE have to fight the good fight every day and "we will overcome".

Arkansas Patti said...

Ah, aren't we all.
I too am an active sort and if that diminishes any more, I will join you in cranky. Think you are reaching a point where you need to look into knee alternatives. There is lots of help out there.
Like your new profile picture, not inside but enjoying nature.

CambridgeLady said...

Well I think you're lovely. And you clearly have a sharp mind and a kind heart. Those are the things that matter. I must admit I fear losing my mental agility more than my physical agility as I get older ..... though pain can be wearing and affect your mood. Have you tried cod liver oil for joint pain? I know a few people who swear by it ......

Susan Erickson said...

Knees and ankles are tough to keep nimble...pacing yourself is the best way to go...then remember...rest, ice, compress, elevate....It all really helps!

NitWit1 said...

I have two total knee replacements --great, but a painful rehab. However there are some marvelous improvements since mine which are near 8 years old.

Can't do everything the natural ones did, but NO pain.

As for the aging thing, AMEN

Gaston Studio said...

At least you have your eyes and fingers Rosario, I have two "trigger fingers" the same one on both hands and when they get caught, I scream out loud until I can pull them back into shape. Then, there's the knees, the shoulder, and oh Lord, the back! See, you're doing really, really well!!

Jane

ellen abbott said...

Love the new pic. and cranky is our reward for living so long I think.

pink dogwood said...

Love your new profile picture
older is relative
normal changes everyday
but one thing is for sure
you are beautiful
and witty and talented
and that is not going to change :)

Angie Ledbetter said...

Trade ya the bad knees for the faulty memory! :D

You're beautiful, and enjoying life as is. Yay.

Sharon McPherson said...

Hey, I think you look very pretty, what a great photo of you. Your beauty shines through ...

Eyes and fingers are important and if these are now your finest assests then so be it ... work with that and adapt to your dodgy knees lol

Best of luck xx

Relyn said...

Oh, Lord. I hope I don't get crankier, my family may disown me.

decomondo said...

Dear lakeviewer, you still seem to me the same girl with great personality, “a bright, beautiful thing” in the picture I saw in your post "Reprise".

Amanda said...

i look at your photo and see that brave young woman who came to this country at 17 and whose memoir of her family's life in italy spilled out in an elegant stream.

your new photo is beautiful and you are beautiful.

Sarah Lulu said...

Love love love the photo and you!

I also have many creaky bits.

Nancy said...

Ohhh, so sorry about the knees. I have one that is just starting to act up, but I can relate about the older and crankier part. I hope the cranky is just a phase.

Lizzy Frizzfrock said...

I'm older, hurt more (especially my hands & sometimes my knees), but I don't seem to be as cranky. Being retired helped that & getting away from the trouble & toil of education.
You still LOOK great! I like your new profile photo.

Katherine said...

I like that your thought it important to mention you watch comedy. That keeps you young where it matters most... !

Diane said...

Older. Still beautiful!!! xo

amalia said...

your eyes,your fingers,your smile your liking and your mind ,you have a lot

Roseann said...

Try Aquasize classes at the YMCA or Gym- it really helps with the joints hurting.

And I laugh all thru class..........

Double benefit!

Rachel Cotterill said...

I like your new picture :) But I'm sorry to hear that you feel less comfortable than a year ago.

Woman in a Window said...

I feel so tender toward you in this moment. I think your new picture is more beautiful than your older one. You are getting more beautiful as you age.

I was thinking the other day about character and how we seem to settle into ourselves as we get older. Does that make us crankier in a way? I wonder on that. As we know ourselves more do we get somewhat more intolerant of others? I wondered if that is the origin of it. I see the beginnings of it in myself. Not such a good thing. But perhaps it comes with pain. I understand this one, too, even at my age. Bad back. I lose my patience.

I am sorry for you being held back by yours. It is as though wings are being clipped and that is a hard hard thing to live with. But fingers and eyes are so handy. The other day at work a couple came in. The woman parked the gentleman center aisle and left him. I made to go around him and tried to gently help him move. He was blind. They were camping through November. He stood there center aisle not doing a think but waiting. I counted my blessings. I wondered on his days. I wondered on his mind. I wondered on his patience.

xo
erin

RNSANE said...

I share you laments, Rosaria. And I grow more and more depressed as the months pass since my job loss. I can't believe it's now a year and a half since I've worked. I miss it so much. I did testify in court a couple of weeks ago on a case I did three years ago. It brought my forensic nursing days back so clearly.

As for the body, oh, yes, the aches and pains increase daily it seems. I haven't walked four miles in years...perhaps, two, sightseeing in one day but not at one stretch!!!